Trust and Appreciation

I’m tired of trying to force things. I feel as though I’m put in a position to just trust, release and free fall to wherever that takes me. It’s difficult for me since I’m such a control freak.

I want to stop feeling bitter and hurt about circumstances and just allow and accept what is. I will try to remember not to fight each moment ... to just breathe within each moment and allow the truth of the moment to free me.

I do remember to count my blessings, and I have oh so much of them. My personal motto is to “look for beauty” as that’s the easiest way to keep the glimmer of life and joy alive.

The beauty in my life is overwhelming if I really think about it, beginning with the wonder of my mind – I still have my wits about me. Our minds are wonderful things if we allow them to work for us and not against us. Again, it’s all about filtering thoughts that add to, and not detract from life and love.

The gift I got from adversity this year is the restoration of my faith in people. I’ve always felt the need to bear it alone, and that’s simply not what humankind is all about.

I don’t have to watch the news or dramatic movies to witness the awe and amazement of the human spirit; I have but to look within my immediate family: B and Hunny. Watching them both deal with and overcome what’s been placed before them have been an inspiration. I get all misty-eyed in appreciation of it. But then I have to remember to pat myself on the back, as I’m told time and again how well I’m faring considering.

Now, I just want to make a difference ... to contribute somehow. The gifts I bear are effervescence, creativity and heart.

What I’d like in this moment is a teary-eyed belly laugh. I love, and I love all that I have. I am lucky.